I hate writing questions from first person but this one I can't really think of another way to phrase it.
I am very strongly indifferent towards all aspects of life, too much so in certain categories. I can positively explain this as "I can survive comfortably with very little in spite of life's road being a bit 'bumpy' at times." However often it translates much more blandly into a very broad apathy that encompasses anything and anyone if I don't 'force myself' to care.
I don't always feel this way, sometimes I'll get surges of "interest" [for lack of a better word] that will drive me towards a goal for awhile or perhaps just make me more driven in all categories for a period, but generally either of these will fade in a short time frame.
Well Snow , guess what ? I feel completely the same way as you, and I believe many other people feel the same way as you too on this site and even around you.
Many people often follow a daily routine till they grow old and eventually pass away ... i.e. waking up early in the morning and going to work, coming home at night and spending time with their family and then maybe take a trip or vacation every year or so. You could also say that these people are pretty apathetic when it comes to their lives because it seems so mundane and boring to someone else.
But when you further think about it, the reason why this is the case most of the time is because a lot of people have actually given up on their dreams. If you would think back about your time in pre-school or your earliest days in school, you would probably remember that your teachers probably asked you about your ambitions or to write about your ambitions in the future. Then think about the great and fantastic answers your friends or classmates gave... and then remember them being shut down by society and given up on as you grow older.
So... are you really just being apathetic towards life or have you given up on most of your desires or dreams ? If you think that you are just being apathetic towards life, then you might want to ask yourself Why does it really matter to you that you are apathetic towards life ? These are questions which I also ask myself..
Hello Snow, it seems to me that the phrase in your question "sometimes i'll get surges of interest ... that will drive me forward" is important.
As Stingray so wisely points out in reply to the question "how do you rekindle your passion?" ... there is a quote from The Master Key System, part 18
" the incentive of attention is interest, the greater the interest, the greater the attention, the greater the attention the greater the interest, action and reaction; begin by paying attention; before long you will have aroused interest; this interest will attract more attention, and this attention will produce more interest, and so on. This practice will enable you to cultivate the power of attention"
Next time you have a surge of interest, try using this method, i feel sure it will bring positive results.
answered 24 Feb '12, 08:54
I don't think you need to fix anything because you are not broken. You are who you are at this very moment, and accepting who you are right now no matter what, is the key to the change that you desire.
It may be that for some reason deep within, you are not truly accepting or loving of yourself. Whenever we resist ourselves on the inside, we usually reflect that back into the world around us.
A good test to find out what you truly think of yourself is to look into a mirror, look into your own eyes, and say, "I love you" a handful of times. Usually on the first try you will found out how you feel about yourself. If there is any type of resistance like feeling stupid for doing it or embarrassment, then you may have just found out that there is resistance to loving yourself.
When you can't stare into a mirror and love yourself for even a short period of time, you will probably have the same feeling and emotions of caring about other things for a long period of time in the outer world.
I had a very hard time doing this mirror exercise when I first tried it. When you say that you hate yourself for years and years, the inner self has a hard time looking you back in the face and believing anything you have to say that is positive. Once you do this for a while though, and you really start to mean it, it becomes very easy and actually enjoyable, for me at least it has.
I've also started to notice that once you begin to care more and more about yourself, you start to find new things to care about in the outer world. When you realize you are just perfect the way you are, and you don't need to be fixed, or there isn't something wrong with you, a lot of things seem to fall into place.
Apathy is just resistance that your ego doesn't feel good releasing. It is comforting and safe to your physical construct but not to the real you on the inside. Even if you think you love yourself now, love yourself and appreciate yourself even more and things could turn around in a blink of an eye.
Continue to follow your excitement. Once something of interest has faded, find something that interests you again, no matter how small it may be. Continue to keep that train of good positive energy flowing just like an eternal fuel line. The exciting and interesting things you do, large or small, the more positive energy continues to flow through you.
answered 24 Feb '12, 14:50
How do the words "fix my apathy" make you feel?
Could it be, perhapse, that the need to "fix" the apathy, is the very thing that's maintaining it?
answered 24 Feb '12, 15:12
@Snow - I really think of this as a spiritual issue. I remember apathy; for me, it felt like dead woman walking & the light went out of my eyes..
since you are trying to unlock hidden memories as well as "fix" apathy - may I suggest a soul retrieval? If you see the right Shaman; it can & will bring your 'spirit' back.
I have had cases of extreme boredom/apathy in the past, even to the point of being bored of cooking something to eat so I ended up not eating from time to time.
Are you familiar with the Abraham-Hicks teachings? There are several processes for that particular state. Also the Sedona Method has a lot of great material.
My general advice would be to milk every possible situation where you have interest. Try to look at those things and really focus on them, appreciate them, trying to just get used to that vibration.
Also, I think that any kind of meditation would be helpful. It has helped me a lot in any case. Hope it helps, Cheers.
answered 24 Feb '12, 10:53
There is a WAY...
The problem is, you want to do it YOUR way...
Your way won't work.
If you were a little less cynical, and a little more specific, I have no doubt that there are many people who would be happy to lend you a hand...
I have a complete program that works wonderfully well for most people... But I doubt that my program will do or be what you want...
What you want is your way... or nothing.
answered 25 Feb '12, 09:44