I lived safe and boring for many years, then suddenly decided I wanted to live and love and create and allow, and that's a good thing. That's progress, I was sure of it...
Now, I have been listening to the people who have what I had not, and to be honest, they don't seem to care much for it:
Got the house, now I gotta clean it.
Got the family, now I gotta feed them.
Got the money, doesn't buy love.
Got the love, ptttttthhhhht. So what? Over rated.
So here I am, I'm finding myself bumping into the people and places I visualized and fantasized about. I'm smiled at, chatted up, given favor, taken out on dates and been treated very nicely. I am not complaining, not saying I don't enjoy it, but I am looking at it all with something of a jaundiced eye. Knowing how so many others feel; that none of it has any real value at all, I'm wondering, is it worth it?
I know that when you are in vibrational alignment with your desire, it can seem like no big deal, the experience was more in the process, I get that, and that's cool. I'm just wondering: Now that its here, do I still even want it? And that's fine, too. If I don't want it (him, them), no problem, I'll do what I like, regardless. :)
My question comes in that I can't help but notice, this is where I came in! This is exactly how I viewed my desires for years. Questioning whether it is worth the effort.
Is this the finish line for all desire? Was it all just to go from point A to B to C, and back to A again? To find that "Vanity, vanity, all is vanity and vexation of spirit." ? If that is so, I'll work with it, I will ask your advice on how to enjoy it anyway.
Or have I just got this all wrong, and I'm heading off in the wrong direction? Again, if so, I'll work with it. I really I hope you can see what I'm saying - I really can't tell whether I have gone forward in this, or slipped backward.
We have talked about this pendulum syndrome about swinging between positive and negative at this stage so I am just gonna reproduce here what I wrote in comments some other place...
But I know this and you know this:) Yes, the feelings have to be "dealt" with, "coped" with (all wrong words used to make a point)...
...I have tried to ask the same question five different ways here, the answers are not the 'secret we all knew but held back from you' type:)
It's still the same but what will be unique to you (and to me and to every individual) is the direction where you are headed as you mention.
There is no right or wrong direction! There maybe a 'wrong direction' you may feel you are headed towards but that is upto you to decide. The choices are still yours. Free will! Even the choice to feel miserable about being headed towards what you feel is a wrong direction, is still yours!
There's no slipping back (even as I write this, I know I am reaffirming this to myself), you are not going anywhere, you never came from anywhere! You are just re-remembering who you are!! You decided to change the 'COMFORT ZONE' you were in by seeking...whatever. So did I, and maybe that's why we came to this site...if you jump into something there will be some displacement (like in water), some beginners luck:), some good laps in between:), but as they say about writing, everyone knows the beginning and the end, its the middle portion that's a B#$tch...that we all have to stick it out, not give up.
Her story really touched my heart, I didn't feel right to say it over there, but it made me thinking 'What am I complaining about?'
More importantly it made me think that I should be grateful always and not in comparison with anybody. I must learn to count my blessings and not dwell on what hasn't come yet (because it will eventually, know that)
Take it easy, this should be fun, this is fun, was fun when I started (wasn't it?). We all, at times, get caught up in over-thinking stuff!! Have a laugh (and don't doubt it...lol)...
And don't make HIM feel like this:))
I have asked a similar question a few ` different ways. What I have found is that when we are simply happy, the things we truely desire come to us as if by magic. I only recently learned about the Law of Attraction, so didn't really know what was going on before. When I look back though, when I was at my happy times, when a desire popped into my head, it was filled pretty quickly, not always in ways I expected. I am so glad I finally know what was happening. It is like I have come full circle. I am so excited for remembering that I get to choose happiness and how easily life flowed/s when I was/am happy.
I had been trying to teach the concept to my son. The understanding I have gained about the LOA since participating here at IQ has really helped me to better teach my son. He has taken off with it.
I rarely get smoked turkey legs, but I did recently. I knocked on my son's door to offer him one. He was playing a video game and his army was eating. He had just decided that a turkey leg would be very nice right now. Instantly I knocked on the door to offer him one. That is how it works.
Grace I am not sure how much you know of esoteric understanding but this photograph fits what you are talking about.
Listen to the song Tomorrow Never Knows by the Beatles.
"We all play the of existence to the end... Of the beginning..."
The teachings tell us that we are trying to find the end but when we find true awakening we have traveled full circle to reach the beginning. Read the book The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
We may feel we are sliding back but we need to know if we are sliding back or perhaps have come full circle. The sure way to tell is if you feel sure of your self or not, in other words does this feel like an awakening to you or a set back?
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