I have had difficult pain for about seven years now; it seems to have had it's start with a fall years ago. That may be connected with former abuse experienced, so I have tried to carefully work through all of the feelings that brings up. I have learned a lot about how to handle the pain, and taken some excellent steps to reclaim my health, and it is all helping a lot. It has been getting much, much better this year.
I think I see how I brought this to myself - I just couldn't handle the emotional pain I was living with, so I switched it to physical pain. I want to be done with it all now. This is limiting my life, and I just can't stand it anymore.
I have become much stronger in the last six months with a specific exercise routine devised by my physical therapist that is developing muscles I never knew I had, and is doing wonders for my flexibility, energy, and my self-esteem. I am eating better food than ever, taking good supplements, drinking lots of water. I've worked to change how my thoughts and emotions effect my life, and its working - I may not have "arrived" yet, but I am definitely glowing. :)
Still, pain stops me from moving easily, and prevents me from walking for more than a few minutes at a time. This stops me from going to concerts, street fairs, beach strolls, baseball games, rock walking (along my beloved river) window shopping, antiquing, walking in the rain (read - splashing in puddles :D), millions of fun little things are just gone from my life, and I want so much better for myself. I want to do yoga again. I tried last night to do a yoga routine suggested to me here, but I couldn't even do the first warm up, and ended up in tears, nothing accomplished. I have pain medicine, and it does help, but I don't want to handle pain, I want it gone!
I have read a lot on this site about pain, but it comes down to one of two things: Either dealing with the pain, or getting rid of it at each occurrence, tapping or meditating, or otherwise stopping and concentrating on it - all of which I use, and they help, but they don't last. The pain just comes right back. I want it gone forever.
There are healers here. Can you heal me? Or can you teach me how to heal myself?
I would appreciate anything you can share with me. Thank you.
Like many on this site you are well versed in what you should be doing. You have made real progress since your arrived on the site - I can see that and I am sure you know that too. You know that your vibrational offering and your beliefs are what create your world. Firstly, celebrate that because that means you are closer to the solution than perhaps appears.
As you move into the higher vibrations, you have to deal with the more deeply layered issues and integrate. This usually doesn't happen all at once because most of us couldn't handle all our issues at once.
My guess is that the pain is indeed connected to the abuse you have suffered in this life and probably in other lifetimes as well. On some level you maybe don't feel safe.
The solution is start affirming that you are safe - "I am safe", "It is safe to be in my body", "It is safe to voice my opinions" etc. You know yourself what might work here - if you can't think of it, just keep asking yourself what the issues are you need to deal with. I find Treb's technique of relaxing and counting to 21 (with 5 - 10 seconds between each number) and then when you get to 21, asking yourself the question and just listening for the answer. Trust the first answer given before you have had time to consciously amend it.
Also keep assessing yourself as you move through your day. Notice when you are triggered and ask yourself questions about it - how do I feel about this? Notice what happens within your body. When you are in pain, notice it, stay present and ask yourself questions about it ... what thoughts have created this? What is the worst thought I have had which has led to this? What is the reason I have created this pain? Questions beginning with "Why" are particularly powerful? Write it out if that helps.
Once you know what thoughts are creating the pain, you are aware of it - awareness changes things by itself but you can also switch to the polar opposite thought. For example, you have pain, you ask yourself what thoughts have created it ... (you may have to do this multiple times over a period of some days) you listen for the answer. Say the answer is "I have pain because I'm not good enough". (That's just an example - I'm not suggesting that that is your feeling). You can switch that to "I am worthy". You could even ask yourself what the thought you need to focus on is. The point is to focus on the vibration you want (I know I don't need to tell you that!)
Once I have uncovered a belief - I make a note of it and at an appropriate moment I do a focus wheel/block on it. Get in the habit of doing a few a day - they are a fantastic tool.
The other thing and I know I really really struggle with this myself and I sense from your question that you are struggling with it too. Accept where you are. Try to see this situation as a gateway to something better. You know maybe experiencing this pain has led to fantastic spiritual insights. Experiencing pain has enabled you to reach out to others in pain, made you more compassionate. Look for the benefits in the situation. My own struggles have led me much further down the path of spiritual enlightenment but yeah, sometimes I just want them to be over so that I can get on with the fantastic spiritual life I envision for myself - LOL! I know it is sloppy thinking. If you could just see this pain as an opportunity to integrate these emotions, even just a little bit, it would help you. Every time I tell myself that that is difficult - I try to challenge myself - because I BELIEVE it is difficult doesn't mean that it is - I could chose to see it as easy instead. That is easier said that done I know. Or is the very thought that things are easier said than done just another belief?
These are challenging times in which we are living and to a greater or lesser extent we are all having difficulty dealing with our issues. Ultimately, nothing needs fixing - as Ursixx says you are already healed but you need to press the RESET button and get back to the real you, pain free and healthy.
What is antiquing by the way?
Hi Grace, I suggest you get as comfortable as you can, either sitting or laying down. Close your eyes and start breathing deeply and follow your breath for a few minutes. Then, see your breath/prana going to your areas of pain and see yourself moving with ease. See yourself walking and running and dancing and smiling. This visualization will create the healing you seek. Peace
answered 28 Sep '12, 06:42
From the Tao Te Ching
I wish I was a healer. I'd wave my healing wand and say pain be gone!
There is the whole ying and yang part of your pain.
Again A-H Daily Quote to the rescue!
I have not permanently ended pain. However, the only moment that matters is Now. I have come up with a way to feel better now. I call it Two Hands Touching. I was in 3 minor car accidents, but got soft tissue injuries that have not yet healed. I also slipped and fell and tweeked my sacroilliac joint, which goes out every once in awhile. So ribs go out and my hips go out. I can 'adjust' most of them with a softball or other small hard rubber balls. However, there is a spot in my neck and a spot in my hip/lower back that I haven't been able to get myself, so I go to the chiropractor.
Last summer, my hip went out, but it was too tender to adjust, so I didn't go to the chiropractor. However, the displacement of my upper body, put out my neck in the place I can't get, so I was on the couch all summer in excruciating pain, barely able to hobble. Finally I was able to go to the chiropractor and be able to get adjusted and begin to mend. This summer, my hip went out where I can't get it, so I went to the chiropractor. I forgot that he wouldn't be able to adjust it because I couldn't even lay on the table. So I went in and had to sit with a heating pad on my back since I couldn't lay on the table. It was so tender that when the chiropracto asked me where it hurt, I touched it, which sent it into spasm which sent other muscles into spasm, kinda looked like I was on a bucking bronco. So the Chiro said that I would have to go home and take muscle relaxers for a few days before he would be able to even touch me. I thought about last summer and how there was no way I was going to go home without an adjustment, I couldn't even walk upright. So sitting on the table, I put my hands together and did THT. I slowly lowered myself onto my side and he adjusted my, I carefully turned, with his help and my hands pressed together, and he adjusted everything. I asked him if he could feel me relax under his hands, and he simply said, "I wasn't going to be able to adjust you before."
So, I still have pain daily, but THT helps me to handle Now. I use it often, and have noticed a huge difference in my thinking patterns which is what will change my reality as fast as my beliefs allow. I have a long way to go, but I have come a long way. Neither of what matters, because Now is all we have.
answered 30 Sep '12, 11:51
hi this is my first time posting hi i read you want to get rid of pain okay alot of people have given you some advice thats good now i have an idea why dont you get angry at your pain and take control over it and get creative get some paint brushes and paint the pain for example if you go to the goodwill you can find some paint brushes and get artisticly angry like if your the hero in the comic book and you paint the true intension of this pain., another idea maybe you need a new friendly wallpainting with lots of people to stare at and meditate and make your imagination fly hard or maybe with help you can change your curtains or rearange your furniture or put happy vibrant colors in and get dressup dont wear cloths for the pain or nothing for the pain that my advice im trying to find a tree to revive i found one and im going to make it come back its half dried but hope exists tell me how it go okay
answered 25 Sep '12, 17:45
As a physical being, you're always going to experience pain. The way you eliminate that pain is by removing or healing the thing that causes that pain.
You should rejoice in this. Pain is a feedback mechanism; it is nature's way of telling you that you are doing something that is harmful to your physical self. The pain instructs you to correct the harming behavior, and allows you to come back to physical equilibrium.
If your pain is complex, in the sense that it is tied to heavy things in your past, rather than using techniques that focus on the pain, perhaps you should focus on healing the things that cause that pain. Focusing on the pain only makes you more attached to it.
@Grace- I HEAR YOU!!! I am in the same boat...one thing after another, no end in sight...Am on my way to the hospital (again) for a torn cornea--third time I have woken up with this...I will add to my answer later, but I will pray for you all the way to the hospital, and Wade, too. We will send you distance healing while waiting at the Ophthalmology Department. I will add a LOT more when I get home. Pain is my bedfellow, too.
You know I love you.
Jai ♥`EDIT ADDITION-AS PROMISED!!!
As you probably know already, @Grace, the FDA is on a rampage to stop illegal use of pain killers, and has actually stated that opiate treatment for migraine headaches is no longer approved for pain. This really has screwed me because now I have to go through all sorts of hoops and other treatments that supposedly will "help" my headaches- Now we are talking a whole host of an industry- physical therapy, psychological counseling, pain management (shots in spine,- not pain management at all), etc. All these trips and appointments have become almost a full-time job for Wade, driving me back and forth the one-hour trip to the Medical center. I sometimes have a migraine for eight days straight- pure, unadulterated agony unrelieved by any of the non-narcotic meds, self-hypnosis, etc. On top of that, I suffer from basilar, or hemaplagic migraines, which start in the brain stem. I am allergic to all the Imitrex-like products, and they would kill me anyway, because they would constrict the blood vessels down in my brain stem, thus shutting off my breathing and heart beats.
Now add to this these conditions: I have had three fusions in my lower back, which have stabilized the bone but have NOT relieved the pain at all. I cannot walk any distance at all- your question above says everything I would say about my back and what the pain prevents me from doing. I, too, long to just walk. I have running dreams all the time. I used to run the 400 in Track in High School; I was in dance and gymnastics, and played softball. My original back injury came from a fall down 24 marble steps at the front of our HIgh School. I was temporarily paralyzed, and my #$%^%&% mother refused to let the ambulance take me to the hospital to be treated. I was in agony for weeks. I suffered a serious car accident in 2008- a guy high on cocaine rear-ended me going about 80 mph. My seat belt nearly cut me in half. He hit me so hard that he pushed my stopped Jeep into the woman's car ahead of me, and took rubber off my tires.
On top of this, I am missing part of my right foot due to a MRSA infection which developed from stepping on a tack...I get random MRSA infections everywhere- They have eaten my left knee- that was in 1999-2001; right knee had both MRSA and a necrotizing bacteria which ate my upper leg and knee. My right quad is permanently split into two, which makes the knee replacement not work properly, and slides my kneecap way off to the right. That knee is always in pain, and swells, drains down my leg into a pocket on the side of my leg where the fluid collects.
I have severe arthritis in my spine, as well as stenosis, and cannot stand staright for more than two or three seconds.
In short, @Grace, I am a mess of pain, and I have absolutely no narcotic pain medicine to take for any of this- they will not help me.I was being helped in Mississippi, but since I have moved to PA, it has been nothing short of a nightmare of pain.
I believe that the FDA is more concerned with drug addicts and over-dosers, drug dealers and misuse-rs of pain meds than they are with people who are hurting, plain and simple. Banning opiate treatment for migraines is ridiculous.
I have decided to take action on this matter. I want to collect as many stories of chronic pain sufferers and their personal journeys through the mish-mash of our American medical system. @Grace, I would love to talk with you on the phone (my dime), and would like you to email me if you are interested in helping each other, and helping me with this book.
The American Medical System is failing badly, and needs a drastic overhaul.
This is my opinion based on the fact that I have cost insurance and Medicaid well over one million and a half dollars, yet I still hurt. My bill for just my right leg was $750,000 and my share was $54,000, which I cannot pay back. They call and call and call...I am on SSI and have absolutely no spare money to pay anybody anything. This month, we have no money for food.
Grace, we prayed for you as i promised, and I am glad for your dream. I run miles in my dreams, and it feels great. It is always sad to wake up to the pain and the confinement of a wheelchair.
Wade and I can do distance healing with Reiki. Email me if interested- this goes for anyone who reads this and needs healing.
My email is simply my name at yahoo. (jaianniah)
God Bless you and Keep you Happy, @Grace.
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