I feel I don't know how to live anymore. Without a way to directly take action towards what I want, or the confidence that it will come without any deliberate action, I stall completely. It feels like everything is pointless and in a sense I'm afraid of taking any action, even more so of making commitments. I'm afraid of wasting time but I don't know how not to. Not just "physical" action, mental "action" too; I don't know where to focus. I'm afraid of spending money and this leads me to wasting it. I don't feel like myself and I don't know what to do with my time. I'm not getting any better and I have been deteriorating for many years. I don't know how to get better, nothing sticks.
How do I live on a minute by minute basis when I feel deeply restricted? I get it, I keep saying the same thing over and over again and I'm annoying because I can't see the wisdom in what others answer. Maybe none of you truly understands where I am well enough to show me a way out. Maybe there is no way out. I don't know what to say to that. I wish there was a button that made me express myself perfectly automatically and then made someone give me the perfect advice that clicked in my head.
As a general, overall answer to all of your questions you have posted, flowsurfer, I would really purchase (yes, purchase, not read/ borrow from the library) a book of The Power of Now by the famous Eckhart Tolle. The idea is giving all of your attention to the present moment. I am sure you have heard this before "blah blah blah" but have you actually realistically applied it yet?
You will be able to live your life in exctasy in a minute to minute basis by applying his teachings of giving all of your attention upon what is going on in your life right now. It sounds like I am asking you to believe in the tooth fairy, it sounds too good to be true. Yet with enough mental determination you can achieve that zen exctasy very shortly.
Whilst I do argue he gives an extremist lifetsyle approach, I highly respect him and treasure this to be a book manifested from the heavens. When I was going through a very depressed state of mind, this book assisted me in getting by.
I apply his teachings primarily in interactions with people- I will give people all of my focus when I interact with them. If I don't do it, and I feel the interaction going poor, I state "I really apologize. My mind is elsewhere and it should be upon you. Let's start over."
I always say people who go through tremendous hardship come out being the greatest modern day Jesus. Flowsurfer, I won't at all be shocked to witness you in 1-3 years time as that.
I have no more comments for you at this stage in time.
answered 04 Jun '13, 11:47
Ive been reading your post and ive gone over a few of your previous ones. As you know Flowsurfer im a fan of yours , although ive been hard on you in a few of my replys.
I get very frustrated with you...and to be honest i would normally not answer any of your posts...but theres something highly likeable about you, i feel that inside all the frustration, angst and misery theres a superb person there.
But just now its dawned on me why your such a special person.
I think its the "HONESTY" and "INTEGRITY" you have. You bare your soul and are very upfront about what you want and how you feel.
I think ultimately this could be your way out. This is your strength. You know somethings wrong and you are trying to put it right.
I think that sooner or later your higher self will move you towards your answer. It wont be perhaps the one you think is right just now, and im not expecting your physical self to agree with this.
Youve lived with your metaphorical "demon" for a while now. Your struggling i know, but youll win in the end.
answered 04 Jun '13, 04:32
Please read/listen to Paramahansa Yogananda's books or cds ... hopefully a great great holy Master like him can lead you the right way ...
Meditation is a great tool to quieten your mind down. Please do that everyday 15 mins twice, its not much time and you will see answers slowly. Do you meditate?
Even if you dont believe in Universe or Divine or law of attraction etc. its ok. you can do it the material way with physical action.. and even for that you need a strong mind so you dont quit and be persistent. And meditation can get you there. You can listen to the Laws of Success from Paramahansa Yogananda if you want.
EDIT on 6/4/13: FlowSurfer, please read Laws of Success by Paramahansa Yogananda and also the book Rafa by Rafael Nadal the tennis player. I have read these and now have worked out 92 days out of last 115 days doing intense crazy workouts. What i want to tell you is when your WILL is strong and we are persistent no goal is unattainable. You say you tried to make money but i don't see much perseverance there, you are giving up easy. And i used to be like that thats why i keep writing to you because i know once you build your mind any obstacle will be nothing in front of you. All obstacles will be shattered to pieces. If i could get to this kind of energy from where i was anyone like you can also do it too. We try to look for results too soon instead of keep going forward with all our might and strength. When we have focused energy everyday then the Divine power gets behind it. YOu don't need to believe these, but as Yogananda says try it for yourself. These are scientific principles. Meditation and action together is a most potent combination. i urge you to read these and go about your business like never before. Success will be yours. You will need to just be consistent for like 40-60 days and then you will see that power surge as you mind becomes stronger and stronger. then you will just flow into action with full power and that will become your life. At that point you will be on such a high and be unstoppable.
These 2 books for me united the material going after and spiritual divine power together. It was a blessing to see Rafael Nadal's work ethic everyday training no matter what, how tired, sleep or no sleep, hungry or not hungry. He touched the Divine with his action. You read his book and tell me how much is your effort compared to him. Then we know what we are missing. reading and following these built enormous mental strength for me too that i never in my life had before.
I like my comment so much, I decided to convert it to an answer. Correction - Satchmo deserves more respect - "What a Wonderful World" should be an answer; not a comment.
Your reply was "No it isn't". It is a Wonderful World. Change your view flow - it's a CHOICE - otherwise you'll keep getting more of what you don't want.
Ask yourself this question: "Do you live in a friendly or unfriendly Universe.
It's a Choice flowsurfer -- listen to the following video again & again.
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