So I am presently trying to figure out or understand not only how I have apparently attracted an unwanted situation but how to give fullest focus on a more preferable manifestation.

I am able to recognize this as a recurrent pattern or theme so can only suppose a vibration or point of attraction is active that I didn't realize had so much pull.

To get to a few specifics: last year I got a portable shed (with a porch) that I would use for my little hideaway, work on writings, music, just chill, enjoy solitude, etc. Situated it where someone had years before cleared out a space for something similar but which did not materialize. I pointed the porch towards where the view was nothing but land and hills (I presently reside where the human population is sparse to say the least). Didn't get around to winterizing it so I was so happy when the weather began warming enough to spend more time in/with it.

Well lo and behold, a few weeks ago I wake up to see a bulldozer clearing some of the ground in the exact spacious space that I so adored looking out on. Now we've known that sooner or later some of these properties would no longer be empty spaces, but that it is happening now... and more are on the way.

I guess the point to my question is less this specific episode and more that similar events seem to happen repeatedly: finding what feels like that perfect spot to finally be able to chill and do my thing... but then something comes along that upsets or uproots.

I'm drawn to work on the Bashar idea of what belief must I have to be feeling this bummed about less-than-preferable developments, that are beyond my control or I somehow actually created them, but have yet to see a clear candidate. I also like the one about all situations being neutral and we have the ability to give them negative or positive interpretations. Or the one about asking how it may serve me. However, I am still working on seeing how what is happening serves me positively.

I will say that when I determine to focus on stuff I enjoy, the bulldozer, backhoe, etc, activity out there does seem to recede. But it's impossible to not notice them because they are directly in view when I open the door.

So to cut to the chase: I really really liked not having many neighbors; liked stepping outside at night knowing no one else was out there, but I've somehow manifested an imminent influx and must bid farewell (let go? was it one of those attachments?) to that space I so loved to meditatively gaze out upon.

Again, this is just the latest incident of attracting this sort of thing.

By the way, I'm glad to have found this Inward Quest. Been browsing a lot these last few weeks, decided to go ahead and sign up, maybe find at least a little relief just by spilling this question.