Hello, again. I'd hoped to not ask another question so soon after my previous one, but it's been a rough couple of days and I haven't found another question that answers mine. Also, hopefully, once I fix some browser issues I'll be able to contribute, also!
When I wrote my previous question, I felt alright. And the things I wrote still do, for the most part, hold true. I know what I want is possible and exists energetically, I know the universe will give me some nudges. However, it seems like the more I let myself believe that it's possible, the more the doubt pushes back and fears surface, and things feel pretty nasty then. That's what's been happening just now. It's like what's been said about moving closer to the light makes the shadow larger.
I've been thinking about this quote from Abraham :
Does that mean that when we fear something and it feels bad to do so, our higher selves know it isn't true, and that the thoughts aren't beneficial to us? Obviously they're not beneficial to me being able to bring the manifestation into my physical reality if they're holding me back and my awareness of them makes them more likely to happen (which compounds the bad feeling coming from them), but the wrongness and awfulness that come along with thinking them could come from that higher part of me knowing that they aren't necessarily true, right? I know that they aren't coming from any actual thing I'm seeing happening around me in my current circumstance, they're just things I've made up in my own mind to worry about and fear in the face of wanting what I'm pursuing. It's completely possible that these potential outcome I fear might never happen, might never be the dream-enders I so worry they could be, they don't actually exist. But they still frighten me to the point that I stand paralyzed and doubt doing the things that previously, during better days, easily and joyously felt like would bring me closer to my desire.
I also realize that these fears are related to an attachment to a certain outcome. For example -- and this is just an example, not my personal manifestation, but I saw it in some other questions and it seemed so relatable and flexible to use! -- if I was head over heels for a certain house and wanted to manifest living in that house, and developed fears of someone else buying it first, or being turned down for my loan/unable to get enough money to buy it myself, it could be said that I'm afraid of those things because I'm attached to -that- house, and that there are many other houses in the world that I could enjoy living in. Yes, I know that, I know and accept the truth in that, but it brings me back to the quote of what feels good being true to ourself and what feels bad being in disharmony. A major reason I feel the way I do today is because last night, after questioning my fears and what they're doing to me, decided to give up on my specifics. I thought that it might feel better, but I'm not so sure it does at all.
Continuing the example with the house, let's say I was trying to make a decision about whether or not to take a certain action that would, if it succeeded, potentially help me live in that house -- meet with someone in a bank regarding a mortgage, for example. Because I've been so afraid of going and finding out that someone else has already bought the house, or that I can't get the mortgage, even though neither of those things has shown me any proof of happening and are in no way guaranteed to happen at all, I'm afraid of risking finding those things out and being disappointed to the point of considering risking the chance that it COULD be a majorly positive action that helps me get into that house. I'm not so arrogant as to think I know what is more or less likely for the universe to bring me and therefore can't say that there's a slimmer chance of the positive outcome, because the universe can bring us anything with ease so long as we accept it... I just don't know how to let go of those fears and accept it right now.
I suppose if I had total faith in this thing happening, accepted it without a doubt and knew that no matter what things ever look like on the outside, it could be on its way and arrive at any time, and therefore any action I'm inspired to take would not be blocked from inviting it closer, I wouldn't be worried about what could go wrong... but I'm not there right now. I have been there, and it was easy to just enjoy the thought and everything else around me, but somehow I've managed to get myself here.
Rather than keep going back and forth with this turmoil between knowing the opportunity could work out and also considering how it might not... I gave up and said that unless I had some nudges back in that direction, I was going to just assume that I will not be taking the particular opportunity in question. If that house is meant to be, other opportunities will come. If it isn't, there are other houses. However, I just feel empty with that decision. Even knowing that other houses are out there, giving up on this one feels contrary to my true self. I thought I would find relief from not being afraid, but this might feel worse, or at least just as bad but in a different way.
If what feels good is what is in alignment with our true selves, and what feels bad is out of alignment, should I look at this from this perspective : Knowing that this house is the right one for me and knowing that because I asked to live in it, that reality exists out there in the energy and can indeed become my physical reality, no matter what other possibilities also lie out there, feels good, and therefore is what my true self knows to be in my best interest and in alignment with Source... -while on the other hand- ... giving up on what I know I truly love, even knowing that other wonderful things could happen to me (and another great family could live in that house, which would still be good and very worth my being happy about) and considering the chance of things that could happen to prevent me from being at one with the physical reality in which I have my desire, feel awful and therefore my true and higher self are telling me that these are not the outcomes I should be considering, focusing on, or allowing and are out of alignment?
If we're able to have anything we ask for just because we ask and we feel good about it, even just that we feel good knowing it's possible, that we feel good because the thought of us makes us feel like who we truly are and happy without physically having it... and our emotional guidance feels better when we're focused on being in a specific version of that rather than a vague version, and it feels awful when we're thinking about what can prevent that specific version of the feeling we're after, is that really guidance?
It seems much easier to determine if I'm making decisions based on intuition when I feel good and in alignment, and my emotional guidance says "YES! Go for it!", it even presents me with these ideas out of nowhere which I can't ignore or find the origin of within my own thoughts, which would therefore be what my true self knows is best and in alignment for me. In times like these, though, the noise around me (well, within me) makes it much harder to recognize if what feels bad is my higher self telling me what not to worry about or take into consideration, to let go of and get back to feeling better where the good ideas come from, if it's in some way my intuition telling me not to go for what I want (okay, that actually feels wrong just saying it, but it's an option) or if it's just my fear and self-limits getting in my own way.
I'm sorry for the length! The more I got into it the more poured out, and honestly... I think I understand myself a little more and feel better just for having put it all on paper.
I'm looking forward to being able to hopefully help others with their questions soon, and be able to directly respond and say thank you for your answers when I work out my browser issues. Thank you again.
Yes. I think you are correct. I feel worries also and I know that worries are not in my best interest. I just realize that I want to feel better is important, so I just walk away from the problem and find something beautiful. Focus on the Beauty, and do other things. Allow Beauty fills me and Joy awakens.
This is the best way to get past worries, because I KNOW that worries are clouding my vision.
Hey, I am a Problem Solver! I keep reminding myself that the best way to solve problems is for me to shut up and wait for problems solve themselves. Once I can get that Beauty, that Joy in my mind and better answers appear that had never entered my mind.
This is called Inspiration. And Inspiration give the answers.
[footnote] I am talking to myself in every word I write or speak, so I needed to hear what I just wrote, here, this morning. So I am going to listen to my words (to myself) and seek Beauty and watch the day unfold with eager anticipation as it always does.
answered 19 Jul, 09:04
First of all regarding asking another question, I would say ask away. That's what his place is for. And if the universe is giving you an inspiration to ask, that means someone else is already lined up vibrationally to answer you. Please, don't deprive your vibrational earth friends (all of us) that gift of sharing :)
I can totally understand where you are coming from. I've had plenty of ups and downs over the years with this.
The best thing to do is just forget about the doubt. I know that sounds easier said than done but doubt is simply not trusting in yourself or trusting in the universe to take care of things. Doubt is a human made mechanism that we play around with in this earth game to mix it up a bit.
Just reread that first sentence I quoted above about 10 times without any built in assumptions of anything. Just do it in a neutral, soft and easy way.
I can say I personally feel slightly better just reading that 10 times. I don't want to speak for how you feel about it, but sometimes we all make things harder (myself included) than they need to be. The key is focusing on how we "prefer to feel" and just allowing the doubt, which then produces the anxiety or fear, to just sit gently outside of our feeling place.
But how about changing it up a bit so it's more powerful by saying....
"I know what I want is possible and exists energetically, I know the universe is always giving me some nudges."
Because the universe actually is always giving us nudges. It just depends how open we are to receiving the message or not. When we say (with true conviction) the statement and it feels good, that's all we really need. There's no need to dip into the doubt, which then leads to all the other stuff.
Saying "I know" is as simple as it sounds.
Similar to the example @Yes gave you in the comments
It's really the same with, "I know what I want is possible and exists energetically."
When you know something you just know. If there is any doubt in thinking you know something even when you say it, there is resistance there. Simplify things and get into a better feeling place like I shared above about repeating the good feeling sentence, and milk that feeling.
We're just trained from such a young age for things like this to not be practical as a human. We are trained in the physical and logical/analytical way of living our life. Could you imagine if we were trained in a vibrational way as young children? I don't think that's the game we signed up to play here though.
To be honest, I think every thought we have is beneficial to us. The thought is either telling us where we are or telling us where we want to be. Use the negative emotion as a big glowing neon sign that says, "I'm not going where I want to, how about trying this direction over here that feels better."
Okay here's this thing or emotion I don't want, thank you for bringing it into my awareness so I can choose to fork off into the direction of the emotion I prefer to experience.
If we give every circumstance a positive meaning, we will eventually get a positive outcome from it one way or another.
This brings us back to the feeling of "I know."
You really can't be arrogant in your own universe. You're in your own individual bubble of reality. You don't have to believe this if you don't want to but from my perspective, it's something I know is true right now.
Going by the example of the house, how do you know that the universe doesn't have an even better house lined up for you that you can't even fathom right now. Or maybe it has dozens, thousands, millions of different houses lined up waiting for you depending on how you are chronically feeling.
You can definitely use the good feelings you get from thinking about the house and visualizing yourself in the house, being so focused and determined about all the things that are obstacles and things that are in your way about the house would be what will keep you from the house or any other similar house.
That specific house may very well manifest. You just need to get out of the way with the specifics. Milk the feeling place of knowing you have it and let the rest go. Milk it and let it go. Allow the universe to cook up something wonderful for you. Quit unplugging the gas/electric from the stove :)
Leave it at that. Repeat this sentence just for the feeling of it. You're always going for the feeling. Forget how, when, where, why it has to happen. Go for the feeling and let all the other stuff go.
I usually get quite lengthy myself. I wouldn't apologize for that because I think you're exactly right. These questions and answers are sometimes more for ourselves than others. I know a lot of what I write is what I really need to hear and feel. If someone else gets any benefit out of it, that's just a happy bonus for everyone involved.
answered 19 Jul, 15:48
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