Today something very interesting happened to me. Two contrary beliefs of mine were like fighting for survival if they were saying "there can only be one sheriff in town". This happened just in the matter of minutes.
I work on a very painful jealousy issue of mine for a few weeks now. I did many focus blocks, found many core beliefs that i was not even slightly aware of before learning these tools and i also found massive relief.
I was very sure i got this issue out of my way and i can go on without beeing jealous ever again now. Also i successfully proved that this is true in many occasions. But today something very strange happened. My girlfriend and i were eating dinner at a restaurant and her ex boyfriend called (again) to win her back. Before then i was like the happiest person alive (in the vortex).
Then suddenly i was ripped out of the vortex and felt so much jealousy that i thought i would get a heart attack. It was the old jealousy feeling but just 100 times more painful.
I couldn't do anything in this moment. As she talked with him i just tried to analyze what was going on. But the feeling was too painful to even think about it in a appropriate way. So i did nothing. Then after 1-2 minutes doing nothing i felt extremely confident and happy again such as before. As if that was someone else that felt intensive pain a minute ago. I tested if this feeling would come back and imagined the ex boyfriend calling again and again. But nothing happened and i was like "this is so ridiculous to feel jealous about such an event..." and smiled joyfully.
So this vortex feeling remained and i felt wonderful and talked with my girlfriend about something unrelated. A few minutes later this jealousy feeling again came back with the same intensity. In this moment i was just paralyzed. My girlfriend asked "are you ok?". Then again in the very next moment i felt extremely joyfull and this fantastic vortex feeling so i said "Yes, i'm fine. Just felt jealous for a second but it's ok now. I feel fantastic. But don't ask me about the reason behind it. I don't know." This feeling went on and i still feel wonderful. But what the hell was going on there?
Nothing happened on the outside that could have changed my thoughts so drastically. It was like 2 beliefs were fighting against each other with many rounds such as in a professionel boxing match. And i guess my new belief survived for now.
What was very interesting is that i felt the worst emotion and in the other moment the best one on abraham's emotional guidance scale. And i always thought that this kind of experience is not possible and that you have to climb up the emotional ladder.
Can you relate to this strange event?
As well as Bashar's Echo (or Test) idea, as mentioned by @MoonWillow, it is also worth considering that if you have been deliberately shifting your vibrational setpoint then your fixed emotional range has also shifted.
This means that thoughts that might have previously felt comfortable to you can now feel extremely distressing, almost unbearable at times.
So it is actually quite possible for you to be experiencing total joy in one moment and then come "crashing down" because of a previous habitual thought being reactivated - and now feeling much more painful than before.
It's actually a positive sign that vibrational change has occurred within you. If nothing had changed, you wouldn't feel the pain of your usual habitual thought on the subject. I can certainly remember times in the past where I've had this swinging back and forth between extreme emotions while I was first dealing with long-entrenched bad-feeling emotions.
Nothing to worry about though. As you release those previous thought habits, the instability in emotion will naturally vanish too.
A useful tip to remember is that emotions always come in response to thoughts so if you suddenly find a negative emotion triggered within you, stop at that very moment and try and think back a few moments to what thought you were just thinking.
That negative emotion will be highlighting directly the painful thought. Sometimes it can be surprising to realize that the painful thought that has been identified by that emotion has become so habitual to you that you didn't even realize that you were thinking it.
Used in that sense, the ability to feel negative emotion clearly is one of the most useful tools we, as humans, have at our disposal.
If one embraces negative emotion and the message it contains (rather like the approach used in the MC2 method you've previously mentioned) then there is valuable information in there.
And that sensitivity to emotion can be enhanced considerably through the proper use of meditation.
I'd like to highlight what Stingray has said about our thoughts:
This type of "Oh, Wait a moment" pause (as @ursixx remarked) can make or break whether we change permanently or not...Sometimes, if we can catch the exact and precise thought itself, we can really do something towards changing our thinking.
Using your example, perhaps you were swinging from high to low to high because deep inside you was this thought: I do not deserve to be with this gal... It is little "doubters", as I call them, that really trip us up. Wade and I have finally moved into a home of our own, and I have vacillated between the extreme high of thinking, "Wow! This is incredible! Isn't God good!" to the extreme low of thinking, "I do NOT deserve this man, this home, or these things; I am unworthy." I have caught that little doubter many times, and stomp on it like a bug when it pops up!
If you can catch the exact thought itself, you will find yourself on the brink of a whole new way of life!
answered 28 Nov '12, 07:02
@releaser99, I am struggling with this. I know its not the point, and no one else has brought it up, but I care, so I just have to say it.... If I were having dinner in a restaurant with my boyfriend, I would never take a call from an ex (again?). Never. Especially not if I knew he was trying to get me back. I would mention it to you, discuss it with you, and perhaps I would call him back at another time to try to help him get over our past relationship. I don't want to contribute to the problem, believe me, that is not my intention. I just wonder - if this is a common occurance, is the struggle you are facing more with self-worth than with jealousy? I guess I'm going to be very unpopular, but given the story as you have presentd it, and knowing you slightly from your posts here, my honest opinion is that you deserve better.
Of course I have no idea of the circumstances, I know I may be totally wrong, and I'm going to catch it from the wiser folks here, but to me, this seems disrespectful, and it seems little wonder you have a difficult time. I'm sorry. Please feel free to tell me off. Now I'm going to go reread all of the answers to my question about how to stop judging, and try to be a better person. http://www.inwardquest.com/questions/58321/how-do-you-simply-stop-judging
answered 28 Nov '12, 10:32
you add some over flow from the heart.in that moment many piece of the puzzle where passing by. you probably add a doubt about your relationship with your girl friend because her ex boyfriend called to get her back. you have view it as a risk to your relationship. if the feeling came back it can be a fee things 1:it is not totally solved in you and for you. 2:you are not trusting her to tell you the truth or not change her mind or not playing around. 3: there is something that you are not aware about that bothers you,inside or outside. learn the truth and it will set you free.so let there be light,Be the light that you can Be, experience and enjoy.
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on what does your intellect rule out,
answered 04 Dec '12, 19:35
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