By way of background: I've been on this metaphysical journey for two and a half years since I lost my job. I went through a lot of financial pain, even turning down jobs I thought just weren't right for me. I stuck to my intuition and held out for the best paying, least stressful and most enjoyable job I've ever had using LOA principles.
Seven months ago I felt I was tired of the corporate game and wanted to manifest money by not working. I'm not lazy, I simply had zero desire to go back to work and I was loving the life of leisure.
I've made fabulous discoveries over the last 7 months, unlocked a ton of limiting beliefs and really felt my life of financial freedom on an increasingly frequent and vivid basis. I've felt my purpose was as a teacher using creative ways of getting things across and write books that will help the world see money limitations as simply an illusion in their mind and how to get over them.
It all sounds fabulous but I haven't been able to manifest my own big dream and my debts are becoming overwhelming. I considered suicide even more likely today as I can see no way out but after reading up on suicide here I have another perspective and will not go down that path.
I know I am here to grow my Consciousness and that so-called problems are errors in thinking. I also know that the stronger the contrast the more gold there is in your spiritual growth.
So, I'd like your input on what kind of a lesson you think I am looking to learn to grow my consciousness or at least please advise on how I might go about finding that out. I get 'downloads' from my Inner Being many times a day that not only provide relief but also unlock stuck thoughts and provide what feels like real progress not only to what I am wanting, the cash, but to greater understandings of myself and my Self. It all feels so delicious and progressive but my material results have become overwhelming despite what feels like exemplary work on feeling wealthy inside and really picturing my ideal life.
So, it feels like there's something really, really stuck and big. What would it take for anyone to even contemplate suicide? D
I see my reason to be here as one of being happy. Do you truly associate the growth of Consciousness as a joyful thing?
I have also been at the bottom of the financial well and had a hard time to see a way out. but the good thing about being at the bottom is there is only 1 way out ....UP! Don't doubt that it will be solved. Don't stop dreaming!
and a little song that helps me too It only makes me laugh
I dont know why I feel this way
answered 31 Jan '13, 06:57
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