Today I finally motivated myself enough to start meditating. I was meditating only for 12 minutes though. And that's why: I must admit that I was feeling really good after couple of minutes, so peaceful, so good I can't explain it. But after some time of this good feeling I started to feel really bad. I think that bad feeling was guilt - not sure though I've never been good with evaluating emotions. I tried to focus again on my breathing but the guilt just came back several times so I quit meditating. I'm really confused. Why is this happening? Maybe I should mention that I'm in deep depression so that's way I have to motivate myself a lot to even start meditating.
asked 04 Jan '13, 06:37
The cause of all negative emotion is resistance.
What happens when you meditate? You distract yourself from your thoughts, you stop your thoughts. And when there are no thoughts in your mind, there can't be any resistance to any thought either.
So your vibration automatically raises to a place of love, which is your most natural and pure state. Consequently you feel good. It's like when you hold a cork (your thoughts) under water. If you let go of holding to it, the cork raises to the surface automatically.
But if you have thoughts (guilt) that are too intense so they don't let you stop your thinking, you better deal with them first before you go on. Or they will persist even more. Remember
So here is what to do:
You will notice that this guilt feeling (or whatever feeling) disappears if you are willing to listen and don't run away as if this sensation would kill you. Afterwars you can go on with your meditation session smoothly :).
This trick helps me every time, no exeptions! It's the most powerful meditation form to deal with emotions and neutralize them.
@releaser99 has more or less sown in all up in his excellent answer but I will just add this.
You mention how you have to motivate yourself to meditate. Depression will most certainly play a part in that, but it might also be because you have the thought of having to sit and meditate for longer periods to get the benefits. I have found this not to be true at all. You don't have to meditate for very long at all to get the benefits.
Here is an short meditation exercise by Dr Frank Kinslow you can do here and there throughout your day and only takes a few minutes.
See also One-Moment Meditation
when you meditate you calm the water and make them pure so you can look at the light in the water that light is you the though and emotion that you see they are yours. and there is lots of stuff still in duality and not solved or ignored. until you solve it by learning all the truth about it it will come back again and again. so continue the meditation solve the puzzle. see how it all relates together learn the truth and be set free.
answered 04 Jan '13, 08:11
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