It's very hard for me to word this as in my current state i'm completely lost. As a kid things worked out perfectly but maybe that's the joy of being a child and being taken care of by you parents. As i grew up and started going to high school I had everything I wanted, and situations I wanted just materialized. For example: I wanted a girl friend and being chubby and completely shy to open up didn't stop me as by random luck/fate I met this girl and she opened up to me and things just worked out against all odds. Any decision I made would end up being for the best. I don't know if it was my mindset or what but I was happy. I knew things would always work out.
Then as I went into college and realised that things always worked out for me, things started to go very wrong. It would be say a one year period of complete chaos. Plans just never working out, and by that I mean the simplest plan. You might think I'm over reacting but I couldn't even plan where I was going to go party that night. Either the original party would get cancelled, my friends would decide they wanted to go to a new place or something would happen. You might say this only happened cause I expected it to, but in the beginning I completely believed the opposite. It's just that was totally not what was happening in my reality and my beliefs changed to model my reality.
But through all this one thing I've noticed is whenever I got to a point where I gave up all hope and would get angry and abandon all hope things would work perfectly for the next week or until I got normal which was very quickly cause I'm a happy go lucky person at heart. But as soon as I did things went back to normal. Once again, I only got this belief after 4 years of the same thing happening over and over. It was like life pushing me to the edge and then when it was a do or die situation it would help me out.
I'm from a spiritual asian culture but am a science student and this is a massive disconnect. Now I do not know what to believe as science completely rules any of this out but my intuition doesn't. I'm scared to think positive cause I know what's coming next whereas when I think negative things work. My core belief that god/universe/world is watching out for me has been completely shaken.
I have read about negative manifestations, but I'm not talking about the opposite happening. It's something I have never expected happening all the time. It's fun when it works for me, but that's 1 week every few months which does NOT help.
I'd love for any one of you to give me any insight into this. Anyone to tell me how to resolve this disconnect, how to get back to who I am and bring about the opportunities I want and deserve. Life has given me talents, drive and intelligence but for the past 4 years it just has been messing up the situations. Maybe it's trying to tell me something and I'm not listening. Please do let me know what you think or want to know more :)
@dave12- I'll tell you this...You've made a decision to solve this issue and transform it. Decisions are humans greatest power tool, so I can honestly expect some energy to be shifting about in your life because of this.
I wouldn't limit yourself by "waiting" for the perfect answer to come specifically to you via this website, via this question. How about a fail-proof recommendation?
Getting lost in the archives of this website is something I'd get you to do. There are alot of ideas on this website that I am yet to discover on other open forums that have helped me out with my practical, day to day living experience.
answered 26 Mar '13, 20:27
Yes I wrote a question similar to this a while back. It was how best to use fear and worry for good. What we fear or worry about comes to us.
It comes even faster than working on faith. This is because a fear or worry is absolute faith beyond even a smidgen of doubt.
So the strange thing is if we fear what we want, we pull ourselves towards what we want.
I really need to start fearing, "That I will have so much money in the bank, that I won't know what to do with it all!"
There is no life worth living, were there is only pleasure without out pain. Not many people who talk to you will agree but right now is the point in your life where your unhappiness is not with out great cause. You as they as the bible says are going through the dark night of the soul, are more commonly walking trough hell to get to heaven.The negative zone is a the transition in life to a higher path of mental and spiritual maturity;the best places on Earth are ones which require travelling the most unpleasing paths, do not be alarmed. If you didn't have these rough times a head your life would be of those guys who have a fairy tale life of pleasure with minimum pain then in there 40s break down because they find out there is no meaning and fulfillment for they have never suffered for what they love are desire, devaluing all appreciation of true life in the process . This struggle is what truly allows you to become the man you want to be, so look at yourself in a new way, this is the a new test of life, one that requires courage, focus, and love to overcome. God will continue to put negative obstacles in your life, from out of now where; rather you have a positive are negative psyche, be vigilant, see them when they come and know this is life is not meant to go are way often enough it goes completely against it, but no matter; the day you give in to a negative scenario is the day you stop becoming a stronger man and become a weaker soul. To reduce the negative energy that will subconsciously help to manifest more obstacles.. Brother meditate I can not streets this enough, especially for you right now, I was constantly depressed and at the verge of suicide until I began to meditate you are in a different scenario but it will still help drastically! Final words of wisdom man, your not living unless your living with love, rather it be love of others, your self are your dreams.Love and pain are synonymous, so cherish the love and honor the pain.
answered 27 Mar '13, 00:23
Hi.. I feel the anxiety you are experiencing. I feel the comparing of yourself to others experiences is not of any concern to your life experience. It will only keep this anxiety going.. Start looking at what is good within you. Even if its the simple-est thing. Start loving you, start appreciating some things you take for granted. Be thankful, & acknowledge as much as you can these good things as being an extension of you. I recommend, "Ask and it is Given" by Esther & Jerry Hicks, Chapt 22 list the 22 levels on the Emotional Scale, & at the top is Joy, & at the bottom is fear. Fear = False Evidence Appearing Real. Our thoughts with feelings create whatever we focus our attention on. Start focusing on the goodness, joy, love, & be supportive of yourself. You are worthy of having whatever it is you wish for. Let go of the inner chatter that is not supportive of your wishes. These are just old programs. Be awake up to your true birthright. You are a conscious creator, not a programmed robot. You can shift your energy (thought) to a higher frequency anytime. Be supportive of yourself, & be easy on yourself. Love yourself unconditionally. We are each a reflection of our thoughts (energy) Be the person inside you, that you want to see outside. LOA always mirrors back our feelings. Follow your BLISS, & keep Joy always.. with love :) Tommy (this is taken from a previous response I just left for someone that asked a similiar type question, and I felt this response would be of some help :) Tommy xo
answered 27 Mar '13, 07:07
As far as what you mentioned with not being sure if you believe in the Metahphysical side of the world after spending time going to college in a Science field as well, I can totally relate to you as I just went through the same thing recently.
I went into a very Heavy logical only thinking field for my education and I remember the funny thing was that I was worried that this would somehow change my beliefs in everything that was spiritual to me, and it did after 3 years.
I remember coming out thinking to myself how surreal all those beliefs were and how hard it was to even conceive them because my mind now had such a strong understanding of physical logic and technology of what is possible. Regardless of my new thinking, a situation as you were describing of how I noticed a pattern of events always happening to me that I seemed to have very little control of that were always almost gauranteed to happen in the same fashion everytime would always occur when I acted in the same certain way. These kinda events would just kind of stare into my face like there is indeed such thing as Quantam Mechanics whether I wanted to believe in it or not. Because there was no other way to explain it.
Long story short, I have learned that Quantam Physics/Metaphysics is like the Calculus of math in this Universe. Physical logic is like in a way elementary math (2+2=4). You cannot solve problems in Calculus with only an elementary math format of thinking and understanding.
answered 28 Mar '13, 16:00
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