As you may know your life experience is just a manifestation/reflection of your inner thoughts and feelings.

What you put out is what you get back, so trying to control your life is really just fiddling with effects.

In my experience its a lot less painful to take control of how you Feel (the only thing you really have control over) and let your Life take care of itself, which it will :)

You want to do what you are supposed to do, right?

There are no "supposed to"s that is just a belief system. You believe you are "supposed" to do something because that is what everyone else is doing or because you picked up that belief system from somewhere.

You are free. Nothing has to be done. You can just relax, and the actions that arises are the actions that are coming from your pure vibes of FREEDOM.

As someone who has been out of control for a while I will give my take on this.

Find a tool or tools that will give you control over the way you "feel"

When you find that tool or tools "use them". Don't spend hours and hours theorising about why they work. Use them and use them on a continuous basis.

Its SO SO simple.When you have control over your feelings you've got your life back, you've got your power back,youve got control.

I'll answer this last part first.

It is possible you have adult ADD. I do myself actually. I every day seem to act randomly with no reason. Jai gets mad at me, wondering about my thinking or priorities. To which I respond what priorities? She gets now more steamed! Meanwhile I am totally lost, I haven't a clue why she is mad or what about!

She figured it out, if I am going to do a task and am distracted in any way, I completely forget about it. The other thing I do is zone in on a task like nothing or no one else exist until it is finished, none stop it could take hours. She figured that one out too. The moment I take a break. The task ceases to exist, like I don't remember I was just working on a task.

This stuff happens all the time with me but I don't notice because I am constantly living in the moment. I can barely remember yesterday let alone last week.

I believe it is like adult ADD. I read about that sometime in the past.

You could have this too if you are forgetting to do things.

As for taking control, read the book The Power Of Your Subconscious Mind by Joseph Mury.

Think on it like this, you are in a ship in the ocean. This ship is adrift it has no captain. You are the only one on this ship. You can go anywhere you want to. You can also go anywhere the ship ends up going. You are constantly moving, never sitting still. Even enjoying the moment, you are moving in one direction or another. This direction is based in your conscious belief about where you are and maybe even where you were. But to base it on where you are going, you have to accept that you are the captain of your own ship. You decide either consciously through choosing your best beliefs or unconsciously through allowing whatever subconscious beliefs to control the ship. Your subconscious obeys your conscious in what you choose to believe about your future, this includes your present or past, to your subconscious it is all about where you want to go. There is no reminiscing or sight seeing along the way. The ship is constant in motion, forward every moment in movement in a direction, either desired or undesired your subconscious steers you in that direction. The subconscious doesn't distinguish positive or negative. If you say, "I hate mushrooms! I hope this doesn't come with mushrooms!" Guess what you will find in your plate? Now if you say, "I love mushrooms! I hope this comes with mushrooms!" Guess what you will find in your plate?

It it is true you could allow what comes and just accept it whether you like it or not. But it is so much better to choose a belief consistent with your desires.