No place, No person, No Morals, Nothing makes me interesting.
The most Loving part in my life is 'making movies.'
Which I could not able to do it because of so many reasons.
My interest dropping out gradualy from everything to be very specific from everything literally from everything even from making movies.
When the person interest loses love from the best thing in his life; What could be anything else that makes him interesting 'absolutely nothing for sure it's for absolutely nothing.' I am alone with my suffering because nothing catching my interest out there in the world 'looking at people, talking to them, makes me to feel it's so dramatic stupid idiotic way people are behaving I don't understand what making them to behave such way stupid like things where attention doesn't get hang over on things such like 'they are the smartest, excellent brilliant people themselves apart from anyone else Ok I don't have any problem with but that hurts me sometimes I try to explain them what actual things are around us & how we can go along working with them but nobody bother about it only because they don't want to give privilege to my suggestions & that's the only thing they bother about nothing else & people listen to only people who feeds them no matter what they wont let any other person to take additional or extra privilege apart from them in the same situation which I do not want to actually but all-around they work on the same part leaving me behind. And even these all doesn't bother me what I feel Im leaving in some kind of crazy stupid world N Would be Happy If I dont receive if there will no answer to my question because I want to leave behind everyone & finally I want to leave behind my ownself from this world
The dark soul if somebody reading my question & want to take my life for renewal of her energies without any questions I surrender my life to them.
For the pure souls I request not to answer my question because Im really hopeless 100% hopless.
asked 08 Aug '19, 01:28
I'm very familiar with the feeling of hopelessness. Myself and hopelessness have become a little too friendly over the course of my life. Many ups and downs for sure.
One thing I can say about this though is that I always seem to pick myself back up after a bout (even a long bout) of feeling down, lost, sad, depressed, or even the dreaded thoughts of feeling suicidal.
I've played this yo-yo game most of my life and I can say one thing about it. I'm still here......and so are you!
This is just a negative affirmation that you continue to loop in your mind over and over again. The universe/creation/god always says yes, so you'll continue to get what you affirm to your self over and over. Actually your whole statement above is a negative affirmation. I understand where you are coming from here though. I've done the same kinds of things a lot and you are not alone in this kind of thinking.
To be honest with you here, there is one thing that you could love that can change your life completely.
I know, I know there are all these reasons to not love yourself. Things you think you did wrong. People saying or doing something to you. Things not working out for you. I've been there, done that too.
Everything in your life is a reflection of your inner feelings and thoughts. Self hate or disgust will reflect that out into the physical world. You will always get evidence to back this up as fact that your life is not working out at all.
Loving yourself, in a consistent way, daily with positive emotion will then reflect back to you everything you prefer to experience in your life.
I love myself
I love myself
I love myself
I love myself
I love myself
Probably don't believe that for a minute after reading it right? I understand completely. But it sounds like you have two choices here right now.
I know this may sound a bit difficult to accomplish but.....
Forget "other people"
Really try to do the best you can with this.
You are the only person really and truly in your reality. "Other people" are just the reflection of your inner thoughts and feelings. Every single time!
"What you put out is what you get back!" Every single time with no exceptions. You really do create it all. You are that powerful! You are that strong! You are all that is, ever was and ever will be.
Earth is a stage play or game, and you, I, and everyone else have been playing some very dramatic roles that range from utter joy all the way down to the dark depths of asking "why am I here anymore?"
It's interesting that you posted this question because I just printed out a quote and put it up on my wall a few days ago that sums up you dilemma in a short and sweet kind of way.
I am "hopeful" that something I said here is helpful to you. We are all what we choose and believe to be. It's all a choice. The illusion of hopelessness is just us forgetting how extremely powerful we really are. That's just the game we chose to experience here on/in/at hologram earth.
Unfortunately, I cannot yet vote answers up or down :/ I do like Cary's answer quite a lot and would vote it up if I could.
I read a book a few years ago called "A New Earth" by Eckhart Tolle that support's Cary's idea of living in the present moment, not giving power to the past nor future. I think also not paying too much mind to other people is sage advice, as much of this comes from an egoic center and serves the person giving their opinion and not necessarily the recipient of the "advice." (Maybe mine too, Ha Ha!)
Tolle states that (I paraphrase), that Calm-acceptance of the present moment (not the past and not the future, but right NOW!) can be achieved through observing the present moment before you with...
EGOS, The Me: our egos do the judging, depending on our self-image, we are macho or submissive or whatever.... in either case, the ego looks for comparisons and makes a judgment ... "good or bad"
Another book, which I am currently reading, "IKIGAI: The Japanese Secret to a Long and Happy Life" by Hector Garcia and Francesc Mirales, has some wonderful nuggets of wisdom inside it and testimonies from a number of "centurians," those that are a hundred years old and older!
Perhaps, one can find personal inspiration from these words and resources. I hope so. Peace be with you.
answered 23 Aug '19, 13:59
St. John of the Cross called what you are experiencing "The Dark Night of the Soul". It feels pretty wretched, and it can be a real test of endurance to get through these awful times. I have gone through this; many people have done so (and it was no consolation to me to know this!). I really did not understand it at all until I finally read somewhere or other that experiencing these periods of difficulty and despair were an indicator that I was "leveling up". What does this mean?
Everything seems awful. Nothing satisfies. Circumstances might be preventing you from doing what you want to do. St John was imprisoned by the Spanish Inquisition at the time he wrote of the Dark Night. Whatever the cause or circumstance, nothing works any longer because you need to grow, and your soul is gathering the strength to move you to a higher level. Maybe deep inside, you are finally acknowledging that some big changes are in order, but you are afraid to begin, to commit to something new, something bigger. Perhaps you don't even know what you should do next. The phrase, "Caught between a rock and a hard place" describes it exactly. The rock is all of the old things that do not work anymore, and the hard place is the future- the unknown, the "undiscovered country" of the future (to borrow from Star Trek).
We've given this wretched place a name. There are tons of books and articles out there that can guide you through this. Get to Google, and climb into bed, pull the covers over your head, grab your flashlight, and read all about it. Turn it into an adventure with the spirit of a child. Do the exact opposite of everything you have been doing lately. It's summer (I am assuming you are in the Northern Hemisphere-my apologies if you aren't), so get outside, and let the sun beat on your head. Go for a walk, and look for ten pretty rocks to bring home. And so on.
I promise you that you will pop out the other side of this, and you will have a new purpose and a shift towards more positive feelings. I had a bad night last night, and at dawn, I had an amazing experience. At about 6:45 a.m., the rising sun hit the east window of our bedroom in such a way that it exposed a quarter-inch crack between the window sash and our window air conditioner. After such a bad night, that piercing orange light hit that crack so perfectly that the sun's rays seemed concentrated as they burst through that tiny opening perfectly.
I was struck by the coincidences that played into the moment, and how small a chance there was that I was in that place at that time, at just the right moment, awake instead of asleep, looking just that way, positioned just so in my bed; small odds, indeed. Seeing the beauty of that sunbeam seemed to strike my soul in such a way that I felt energized and quite different. The feeling is still there, even though it is nearly twenty-four hours later. Who knows what will hit your eye and help lift you out of this? Do your research, and you will find your answers. In fact, I think the Dark Night of the Soul has been discussed here on IQ. Let us know how you are doing!♡
been there too...
asked god to take my life...but - here i am.
but you know what? after reaching the peak of low energies like these of frustration from everything it must come up. just GO TO SLEEP. best advise i have for you. forget about everything and everyone. forget about everything you have learn from LOA, think about nothing, be it a state of "im tired of everything, of exploring, of trying to understand and I DONT KNOW ANYTHING AND I DONT WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING" , take a day or two off and in those days just sleep. give yourself a big hug, tell your self that tommorow is a new day and today you are off from thinking. you just dont care anymore because - you dont. everytime a disturbing thought comes kick it away harshly. get a vacation from mind. just for a day or two. much love.
I don't know if this will be helpful, but that might not be a bad place to be in. As long as you lose interest, and not actually "hate" everything. Losing interest and being empty is actually something that is encouraged in spiritual teachings such as Advaita Vadenta. If you're really empty you'll find that it's quite full of bliss and joy actually.
answered 29 Aug '19, 02:45
Here is how to die in a good way: Sit quietly with determination and patience, and say silently: "Look at me." And wait. And wait. And wait.
I did say "determination", right?
Be determined, even if it takes hours. Sit and wait for someone to look at you. When it happens, and it will, you will have no doubts. Do not be a coward and shrink back. You want to die, right?
But do you want to die badly enough to exert this little effort? The part of you that wants to die can die there, if you want. But you, the real you, the invisible you, can't die. That part is saved for heaven.
answered 21 Aug '19, 15:34
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