By way of background: I've been on this metaphysical journey for two and a half years since I lost my job. I went through a lot of financial pain, even turning down jobs I thought just weren't right for me. I stuck to my intuition and held out for the best paying, least stressful and most enjoyable job I've ever had using LOA principles.
Seven months ago I felt I was tired of the corporate game and wanted to manifest money by not working. I'm not lazy, I simply had zero desire to go back to work and I was loving the life of leisure.
I've made fabulous discoveries over the last 7 months, unlocked a ton of limiting beliefs and really felt my life of financial freedom on an increasingly frequent and vivid basis. I've felt my purpose was as a teacher using creative ways of getting things across and write books that will help the world see money limitations as simply an illusion in their mind and how to get over them.
It all sounds fabulous but I haven't been able to manifest my own big dream and my debts are becoming overwhelming. I considered suicide even more likely today as I can see no way out but after reading up on suicide here I have another perspective and will not go down that path.
I know I am here to grow my Consciousness and that so-called problems are errors in thinking. I also know that the stronger the contrast the more gold there is in your spiritual growth.
So, I'd like your input on what kind of a lesson you think I am looking to learn to grow my consciousness or at least please advise on how I might go about finding that out. I get 'downloads' from my Inner Being many times a day that not only provide relief but also unlock stuck thoughts and provide what feels like real progress not only to what I am wanting, the cash, but to greater understandings of myself and my Self. It all feels so delicious and progressive but my material results have become overwhelming despite what feels like exemplary work on feeling wealthy inside and really picturing my ideal life.
So, it feels like there's something really, really stuck and big. What would it take for anyone to even contemplate suicide? D
asked 31 Jan '13, 05:50
Barry Allen ♦♦
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I see my reason to be here as one of being happy. Do you truly associate the growth of Consciousness as a joyful thing?
I have also been at the bottom of the financial well and had a hard time to see a way out. but the good thing about being at the bottom is there is only 1 way out ....UP! Don't doubt that it will be solved. Don't stop dreaming!
and a little song that helps me too It only makes me laugh
I dont know why I feel this way
answered 31 Jan '13, 06:57
Why not laugh at it you have to be positive it cannot always be negative find the positive in life(light). you have free will but if you stay in self pity,afraid(darkness) not able to make a step nothing change.But if you say i will make a change for the better and take that step it can only come out better,yes you might fall but then you get back up and start walking again.
(01 Feb '13, 04:59) white tiger
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"i haven't been able to manifest my own big dream" ... i'd love to know more about your big dream :)
How can you teach people something you haven't learned? More to the point, why would you want to?
Thoughts of suicide are a symptom of despair, which is lack of trust in the power and love of God. In many cases it is a question posed directly to it, a way to test that power and that love when we feel we can not bear to live without it.
yes thoughts of suicide are a symptom of despair ... we live in a world of duality, in despair there is always a grain of hope, hope of a better world in "heaven"
@bluebird two My big dream is to manifest money without working and just from my thought energy to begin with although now I really want to write a story on how it's done for the benefit of the rest of the world.
@flowsurfer I want to teach people something I 'haven't learned' because I feel I'm close and that it's my calling to help people realise that money is all in the mind, how wealthy you see yourself as and how you feel about money not about how many hours you work
As for despair I have renewed confidence and conviction and will not take the suicide path ... ever
Are you talking about instant manifestations,all for the greater good?
@Focus Dude So I suppose then you need to be your first student?