Overall I have little to complain about in regards to the life I enjoy in a general sense. Enough to appreciate that it is usually pretty easy getting to Contentment. But there is one area that I've apparently beaten the drum of so much that it has worn a groove down around Frustration or Overwhelment, maybe even as far as Discouragement. I guess it could be entitled something like, "If only...if I had only stuck with (any given interest), I could've gotten really good at it and had an extensive catalog by now (and maybe even become a lucrative source of income)."
For example: yesterday I vowed to work on one piece of music until I could be satisfied it sounded as good as possible, and the prospect of becoming so absorbed created high excitement. But then this morning I happened to open a document of a piece of fiction that was never finished (was going to be novella or novel), and as I read it, the usual reaction ensued: oh this was getting good. Why oh why did I abandon it? Had I just finished it... and written more...etc, etc, etc." So then I started to think about jumping on it, getting back to the writing, stick with it... until remembering yesterday's vow of sticking with a different project. This has now resulted in the all-too-familiar state of inertia, trying to choose between two attractive interests. And doing neither.
So I guess the story I've created goes something like: I love having multiple interests but I can't seem to stick with one long enough to actually finish a project or few, or get beyond a minimal competence. Whenever I try to declare I will do so (pick one and stay with it until...) I am always dealt that pang when imagining having to let go of the others.
Any suggestions on writing a better-feeling story?
asked 16 Oct '21, 13:01
... not to worry it is as easy as it sounds -- stop talking about how it is or was and begin to talk about how it will be now when you stop talking about how it is or was.
Most important begin the conversation with yourself. It is very trendy to believe that manifestation happens through hard work and action but what is "made" depends on those silent conversations that you have with yourself.
Keep up the good work. We believe in you.
answered 02 Nov '21, 00:56
Audrey Reese Johnson
I published some books written by the Essesani on this subject. Anyway, they have a method for this. Hard to describe in short space like this, but basically your life is a reflection of how you define yourself and act according to that definition. The story is good technique, but it has a problem in that it includes physical reality. Your self definition should be sort of "reality" less. When you use words like "skills" and "competence" you're addressing beliefs and physical reality, but not your identity, therefore nothing is likely to change in the way you intend. The question is where do those thoughts come from in the first place? The answer is your identity. Who are you? And don't use any words about "skills" or "competence" because these are physical terms. You can think anything in the world, but it doesn't manifest. It's the thoughts you act on that manifest. Once you have your definition, imagine what the idea you would do, then act like that you. But again your definition cannot include physical terms. We also have some pages on our website with some processes that may help if you're interested.
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