I'm very sorry for your loss @Wade and the emotional pain you must be going through.

Obviously, you and @Jaianniah are two titans of Inward Quest and it still amazes me that simple words typed on a computer screen expressing different points of view were enough to bring the two of you together and share your lives with each other. The Universe works in mysterious ways.

As another long-timer on this site, I interacted a lot with @Jaianniah over the years. We didn't always agree with each other's perspectives on life, the Universe and everything. In fact, thinking back, we probably didn't agree on much at all :)

But interacting with her certainly helped me considerably in sharpening up my own skills in expressing my own points of view more clearly.

Also, she asked so many questions here over the years that stirred up so many insightful answers from others that I think it would be safe to say that she played a major part in making Inward Quest a valuable digital resource for others.

Her own words, preserved here on this website, are in some ways a tribute to the person she was. And I would argue (from my perspective) that she still is that person right now even if not in physical form.

I wish you well in navigating through this difficult time without her.

Wade,

I can hardly imagine Inward Quest without her.

I am so very sorry for your painful loss Wade, what a blow this must be for you after all these years. The way you met and how you both shared your story here, the profound impact it had on your lives has in a way become part of my story, because I was "there". I witnessed something beautiful develop and endure. When I think of @Jaianniah here, of her search for answers, the experiences she shared, they are inseparable in my mind from your unwavering support and love for her. I've always been touched by your devotion to each other. I remember chuckling over this sweet Community Wiki she posted :) https://www.inwardquest.com/questions/81897/i-think-we-all-would-be-better-if-we-were-more-like-wade

You asked how she helped me, and I think overall the answer is by contributing so many questions here, which sparked a great number of discussions over the years. Whether we agreed or not, she made me think, and shape my own views.

More specifically though, only a week or so ago I was sharing the advice she gave me over a decade ago on balancing my chakras by picturing each of them as flowers. I use that to this day. I've always loved how it makes me feel and I love passing it along to others who nearly always express surprise and delight and take it on into their own practice as well.

https://www.inwardquest.com/questions/57983/can-working-with-my-chakras-help-get-me-free-from-whats-getting-me-down#57991

Wade I am sending tons of love and light, it's there for you when you need it. I believe she is still with you, whenever you reach out, and always will be.

Your journey together is unforgettable. Jai was and is a force of nature. She will be missed.

Love, Grace.